Many of the questions we ask God can’t be answered directly, not because God doesn’t know the answers but because our questions don’t make sense. As C.S. Lewis once pointed out, many of our questions are, from God’s point of view, rather like someone asking, “Is yellow square or round?” or “How many hours are there is a mile?N.T. Wright
I think the thing to remember, though, is that all things, especially the non-sense, are working together for our good. The clearest example is that the immortal, creator God would become a no-account son of a carpenter in the middle east, in order to be willingly and brutally murdered on a garbage dump outside Jerusalem, for the sake of those who hate him, which happens to be for our sake. And then, instead of payment, and because he still loves you, he calls you friend asks you to follow him into eternal life. That doesn’t make sense. But it sure is good. You are loved.
Go in Peace.