When John first heard the commandment “as I have loved you” he may have thought it was a reachable goal. But I imagine him standing at the foot of the cross remembering “as I have loved you” and realizing that it was always an impossibly high bar. But at the same time realizing what it means to be loved by Him. May you too know this. May you be freed by this. May you love one another because of it, and may you go in peace.